My Prayer

My God, I am humbled by thy faithfulness unto me.

To the One who was, is and is to come, bless me with thy Holy Spirit, that I might have thy peace and let go of all these earthly things. Let my thoughts be your thoughts, that I might serve thy purpose. May my life be a prayer unto thee and a blessing unto your creation.

ADJ

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Pieces of me.

No, it will not be easy. But the fruit of our labor, which is love, is in itself, glorious enough.

 

Better now while my heart is full, my vision focused and my path true.

 

God sits with this sullen child and whispers words of encouragement in my ear.

 

It  doesn’t have to make sense. It simply is.

 

Alan Jones

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Adrift

Although

My thoughts vacillate.
I am adrift in a sea of numbness as the world spins around me, to at other times possessing feelings of being broken beyond repair. Somehow I thought there would be more. The lie creeps into my head that I should be more, despite the repeated counting of my many blessings.
What currents have brought me here, to this place of desolation and formlessness?
Was it heartache from the first time I saw my own reflection? Or was it written before my birth that I would be so?
What manner of creature feels these things, much less expresses such longings back to its Creator? Held captive in a prison of my own design, shackled by expectations planted long ago, by parties indifferent to my well-being, I am left wondering.

Still

My solace remains.
I strongly suspect that my own imperfections make me the perfect tool for my purpose in this life. Being set adrift to contemplate my existence is every bit what should be.
I am a buoy at sea offering a point of reference to those still ashore. And while the waves push me to and fro, I know there is a tether tied unto me, which will not yield when called upon. This is my faith, and I shall live and die by it, be I on the waters or dry land. If you will step out unto the water to share this experience of uncertainty with me, you will get wet, there’s no denying that. But know too that your fear anchors you to a lone spot of land, while faith sets you free upon the sea of possibilities. If you will hold my hand, I will hold yours and together we will experience the highs and lows of each passing wave. We shall be what we were meant to be, imperfect creatures bound by a perfect love.

ADJ

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Marginalized

You want to marginalize me, Democrat or Republican, conservative or liberal.

You try to limit me by the color of my skin, be it pale or brown or somewhere in between.

These labels that ease your world, imprison mine.

To objectify me, allows you to disengage or to stoke an unspoken rage.

 

And what if…

What if you could just let me be? What if we all could just wait and see?

What if we could move beyond this ancient need to know,

This primeval need to pre-judge, friend or foe?

 

What then…

Would the things be different, if I opened my heart and let you in?

What if I made a commitment, to share the love I’ve been given?

What then…

If you should forget the lies you’ve been given, would the world end?

If we should remember the truth we should be living, what might begin?

ADJ
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Agrhhh!

I’ve never been one to give much credence to whole full moon and people acting crazy correlation. Sure, the closer proximity of that minor planetoid, might cause some ripple in gravitation, encourage some infinitesimal movement towards lunacy. I concede that perhaps there is some vestige in the root of our brains that is still crazy enough to run to dry land, when all we breathed was water. Perhaps, if this evolution thing is true, then only the crazy moved on to walk on all fours, and eventually just two. Given this line of thought, perhaps we are the craziest species of them all?

So, what has triggered this clearly lunar inspired tirade of mine? Well, I just came home from a networking event where there was very little networking, and not by accident it seems. The event, per the invitation I received, was scheduled to run from 6 to 9, depending on which schedule one received (see my note below) and was advertised as a “Speed Networking Event”. Well, if you work and you live in Atlanta, you know that you’re not going to get to anywhere on the north side of town by 6:00 pm, unless you work nearby your destination or you leave work early. Still, you get there while people are gathering, and you happen to be blessed with the ability to see the future (or you don’t plan to stay for the whole event), you’re working the room with a passion. I would think that if I didn’t have a job, I would have that person. But being employed (for now) and simply looking to expand my network, I waste precious moments chatting with the organizers.

Once we get started in earnest, the speaker comes up front to share some very useful information about self-branding and how to engage others in the workplace. I already knew 90-plus percent of what she said, so I didn’t gain a lot from it. And while I know some of the greenhorns in the room really ate it up, many of us who’ve been in the game for about as long as the speaker were watching our watches (if you’ve survived, or even dared to achieve in corporate America over any extended duration of time, then you already embodied her message into your way of doing business). Again, she did a nice job. So much so, that the greenhornes in room felt the need to ask another 15 minutes of questions. Most of the questions came from guys, who I strongly suspect were single, and looking to impress the ladies in the room with their intellect. I know, because, sadly, I used to do it too.

Finally, shortly after 8:00 pm, we get to the speed networking. We are given instructions, and the instructor does a mock interview with one of the attendees to show us how it’s done. There are roughly 10 tables in the room, with 4 people per table. Our encounters are timed, and at the end of the allotted time, we are asked to rotate. Okay this goes on for about 10 minutes. Then some of us are asked to get up and move (we’ve spent the fist 10 minutes cross pollinating with the table behind us) and that’s fine. Okay, I’ve moved to my second table (only my 4th person since table was a person short), when the instructor calls time. It’s nearly 8:25, and she takes the 5 or 6 minutes to tell us about upcoming (paid) networking events this month. At first, I’m thinking that perhaps she just wants to get this out there before folks start leaving, but once she’s done, I realize, that we’re done. The event was scheduled to run from 6 to 8:30 pm, not 9:00 pm. I look back at my invitation and it says 6 to 9, but apparently there’s been some miscommunication between the team hosting the event.

So, bottom-line, in an event promoted as a speed networking session, in two and one half hours there was only about 20 minutes of speed networking.

Agrhhh!!!!!

At first you think, “oh well, things happen”. But after I thought about it for a moment, and looked again at the list of 7 to 8 upcoming events listed on the board, I realized this was merely a promotional for the other events. The seemly, misplayed, random twists and turns of the evening where not so crazy after all. Simply put, I got played. They got my money & my time. In these current economic times, this will not be the last time someone tries to play for sure, but I am determined to take what has been given and return back love with an open hand, as crazy as that might sound. For to pass along negative actions only breeds more negative action. Or maybe that’s just the full moon talking to me again.

Peace….

p.s. I don’t think the organizers meant it for bad. In fact, I think the for profit (instructive entity) and Alumni Association (non-profit entity) both felt it could be a win/win. But I can say personally, it didn’t quite work out that way.

ADJ
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Misplaced

I have misplaced myself
and I don’t know where to begin to look

I can’t remember where I last saw me
I search my love’s eye, but I’m not there

I sought out my fears
but they were afraid to say

Should I stop, or should I go
Should I yes, or should I know

I saw my passion on a hill
and she whipered down, “Not yet.”

But her smile told me,
it’s not where I am, but where I’m going.

 

ADJ

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Thoughts on writing and other means of sharing….

Surely it is questionable how one can constantly and persistently open one’s veins allowing one’s life to splatter across the page, especially when each encounter leaves the writer drained and a little dimmer.

What is this compulsion to examine one’s own soul, the drive to share lessons learned from each encounter, real or imagined? Why this thirst for something better, even when seemingly, there is no satisfaction within reach in this life?

…Except for this hope, glimpsed in the corner of the eye like a wayward lightening bug appearing in the darkest halls of our lives; leading us further into the darkness. Is each uncertain step further into the vapors faith, foolishness, or both? But then again, if we could understand it all, if we could see it all, would it be faith at all? And maybe, just maybe, in our brighter moments, might we be lighthouses for one another in this journey we all share? For when we shine in the darkness, it has no answer and the substance of our hope is revealed.

ADJ

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